Around this time every year, SPM graduates are planning for their future, deciding which route they are going to choose. Nowadays，there are a wide range of selections, if you receive any scholarships or offer from your preferred institutions, I would say congratulations and you should go for it. If you are uncertain of what to do and considering Form 6, you may have a look on this blog. In this series, I would like to shed some light on my personal Form 6 experience and what is Form 6 meant to me.(PS: The first blog of the series might be a bit of discouraging, but I hope you will read finish all the series, good luck!)
Going for STPM was never in my mind when I was studying Form 5. Why? Due to the rumours revolving, about its difficulty and challenging syllabus. I am sure you have heard any similar advices from your seniors too. In term of period, choosing Form 6 means that you will be studying for two years, which is longer than other option such as foundation, matriculation and A-levels. I simply couldn't afford for private uni due to financial constraints as my father was the sole bread winner in my family. I understood the situation well and I didn't ever complain it. Thus, i personally plan to opt for local matriculation and simply get an easy route into local university, which would save up a lot for my family.
Thing started to mess up when the result was out. I didn't score straight A's in SPM which was out of my expectation . When I looked through carefully, I got an A- in Chemistry. The situation worried me as Chemistry is a crucial subject for me to enter matriculation. ( Chemistry, Physics/ Biology, Modern Maths and Add Maths are four subjects to be considered when entering matriculation) I really disappointed with the result because without all A+ in these subjects, it would be nearly impossible for me to enter matriculation. Recalling back to my schooling life, I didn't take SPM seriously. I was too arrogant at the time, thinking that with my past excellent record in public examination, 10A's were surely in my hand. I didn't really grasp all the theories during the lessons, plus I don't give a try on all the past years papers. My concentration was on chess club at the time, busy participating competitions and planning events. My arrogance and ignorance had paid the price now. It was bitter for me to accept my first failure in my academics. To add salt on the wound, I failed at the crucial moment in my life by myself. Looking at my friends around me scoring flying colours in the examination, the jealousy started to haunt me, I could only hold my emotion sorrowly, deeply in my inner heart.
I still vividly remember, it was at the end of April, I was hitted by the reality again. "Mohon maaf, permohonan anda gagal", the words that appeared on the phone screen were like swords, stabbing me cruelly. I knew that my chance was low to enter matriculation with my result, but I still hoped for miracle to happen, but the Goddess of Luck didn't turn up this time. Concurrently, I received Form 6 offer letter, just like many other who are qualified for it. While waiting for the appeal, I knew that I have to choose Form 6 first. I never expect to return my high school and embark a whole new journey that will be a twist of my life later.
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